Leaping with Gratitude

My heart is filled with gratitude these days because Kanna and Pillai have been taking the extra effort to offer me the freedom to quench my globe-trotting urge and an option to go back later. I have been lucky all these years to have great people around me, I still feel that I owe them a debt of gratitude because of my leaving.

However, inside of me there is a force growing stronger and stronger, a force of metamorphosis, and I think my changing process is going to be faster and faster. That is how growth should be, like snowballing, to welcome more growth and seek more possibilities by leaping forth, I might fall and it might hurt painfully, but I don't think it will make me less intelligent.

I have least intention to lead a monotonous life, staying at one single place doing the same old thing over and over again, life is thousand-cloven, all rich and wonderful, but I cannot see the new world without leaving the old, the new might not be the better, the important thing is my readiness to take the risk and go forth.

Into Uncertainties

Just a few more days I will be free, in front of me are uncertainties, however, age has taught me the beauty of them, because within uncertainties, there are possibilities, and my life will change, I still don't know to which direction, but at least I can feel the excitement now, it's alluring, and fresh, and energetic...to walk into the world again with a child-like curiosity and playfulness.

It's a bit strange if after accumulating experience and knowledge throughout the years, what is left within me is fewer possibilities and confinement, learn all these years to tell myself what I can do and what I cannot, to shrink my own world with my own fear and lament about it. It is really funny if one can think in such way to reduce oneself to a safety corner.

Whenever I step into a terra incognita, the world opens up for me, now it's getting more and more exciting for me to go into unknown rather than feeling the fear. Unknown is an imagery monster with fear as its weapon, guarding the new world from the timid, the moment I decide to walk straight up and take it down, it dwarfs and vanishes.